April 24, 2009
आमा तिम्रो मात्रित्वको परीभाषा
कसरी म दिउ ?
जब कि तिमीले त मलाई
न्यानोपनको आभाष नै नदिइ
छाडेर गयौ ....
बात्सल्यताको महत्व नबुझाई
बिलिन भयौ ...
म भने आमा ,आमा चिच्याइ रहें
तिमी त कठोर् बनी
शुन्यमा बिलायौ ...
जब मलाई तिम्रो न्यानोपनको
आवश्यकता थियो तब तिमी त
आँफै चिसिएर बगर बन्यौ
जब मलाई तिम्रो उपदेशको चासो थियो
तब तिमी त वाक्यहिन भै क्षितिजमा निदायौ
भन... आमा तिमी कस्तो सजाय दिइे
टाढा टाढा अस्तित्वहिन भै
कुन नभमा बिलायौ ?
मलाई जन्म दिइे सहाराहिन् किन बनायौ ?
आमा कुन क्षितिजमा हरायौ ?
मेरो बात्शल्यताको अर्थ किन लुटायौ ?
(समर्पित ''मदर्स डे ''मा )
ईमान्दारका घर-चोटमा कालो धनका रास निस्के
उपचार गर्छौं भनी आउने आफैं रोगी खास निस्के ।
आरोग्य र अमरताको पाठ पढाई थाक्दैन थे,
तीनका अमृत पिउँदा पिउँदै हेर कतिका सास निस्के ।
गजब थियो ओज तीनका, देशको लागी मरीमेट्ने,
राष्ट्रबादको मुखुण्डो झर्दा, बिदेशीका दास निस्के ।
समानताका आबाज संगै मानवतका नारा दिन्थे
आज तीनकै भान्साबाट तीनले खाने घाँस निस्के ।
हींसा, दबाब, दण्डहिनता अराजकता यत्ती बढ्यो
अग्रगमन, स्वसाशन र शुसाशनका लास निस्के ।
तानी फाल्यौ चुरोटको ठूटो ठान्यौ कि
चाखी चाखी स्वाद लिन बानी थिएन
मलाई पनि तिमी जस्तै जुठो ठान्यौ कि
दिलको राजा भन्थ्यौ आज बैरी भए छु
छि:छि दुर धेरै गर्यौ लुतो ठान्यौ कि
मुटु जोडी मन टोद्यौ दुख्दो रैछ छाती
पिसिएर खेरा जाने ढुटो ठान्यौ कि
मैले छुदाँ शितल हुन्थ्यौ आज के भो
भत भत पोल्ने सिस्नोको बुटो ठान्यौ कि
Anup Gurung "lovlyanup"
I am Anup Gurung, now I am in Iraq. I am not a writer but just want to share my story to you, and here I am going to tell you how I came to Iraq.
After I left my study I didn't have any work to do or let's say I didn't have anything to do, which is a usual situation in our country. I always used to gather with friends. I felt in my mind that I should go abroad to earn money and visit a new country as well, so I departed to Dubai. First I wanted to go to Hong Kong, however, China's government had changed rules for Nepalese visitor regarding the visa. They had stopped issuing visa for Nepalese who wanted to visit HongKong. Those who have Hong Kong ID only can get a visa and the one who is married with ID holder's also can get visa. So, Hong Kong visa is limited only for few Nepalese people. If I wanted to go Hong Kong, I would have to marry with a Hong Kong ID holder girl and I didn't have any one to marry me or a contact person to arrange those stuffs.
So I was concerned for Dubai and I sent my all document to my cousins, who were working in Dubai. After 4, 5 months they called me to Iraq. You know this country; where daily car bombs blast, and everyday people are being killed. It's very terrible place. I also heard about Iraq, where our 12 Nepalese people were killed inhumanly by the terrorists. We know that Nepal government restricted to work in Iraq. But we don't have any option to do and also our country's situation is so bad. We can't do anything in Nepal. Everything is expensive, every month there are strikes and Nepal Bandhs. If somebody is killed the people call a strike. But our government does not do anything, they only watch the situation like watching a film. Nepal government knows all that but it doesn't do anything for Nepalese people. They are only living for them not for us and country. So we have to leave our country and go aboard to earn money. But there are also many problems. We know that we need skill for work if we don't have any skills we need to learn. But we don't think we need to take training first, we are only here to earn money. We don't think how they are earning money. We only see that they are earning more and more money. They are working really hard to earn money.
I also wanted to earn money, thats why I applied for Iraq and left Nepal on November. I was happy when I left Nepal as well as sad since I was going far from my family, my country. I didn’t knew whether we can stay or not in a foreign land. I miss my family. I was thinking about my self. At the end of the flight Air hostess announced we were landing on Dubai… please fasten your seat belt.......then I fastened my belt.
We arrived in Dubai. Then one of our friend called the agent at Dubai Airport. The Agent asked us to wait there. After 2 hours our agents came to pick us. Then they dropped us to Ajaman. We saw there were eight Nepalese brothers, where they were eating only rice with salt. They didn't have vegetable and oil, to eat with rice. When we started to talk to them they said they were not eating rice for 7 days. They called agent but they didn't respond anything. It's very sad. We also told the agent, we were hungry. There was nothing and agents said that that day we were going to take our lunch at Restaurant and next day he would bring rice etc. for us.
After 1 hour we went to look for a Restaurant for dinner at night. We were new there and we didn't know where the Restaurant was. But after 5 minutes we found a Bangali Restaurant and we took our dinner there. There was fish and daal, rice but honestly I didn't like that dinner. I missed my family's rice that time. Then next morning our agent brought rice, oil, vegetable, spices, and all things that were needed to cook. There was no cook for us so we cooked ourselves for all. Then all friends took lunch & dinner. The Agent told us our flight will be after 1 week. We went for swimming and fishing to pass our time. Thats how we spent 1 month there. After one month, a man from the agent came at 2 a.m. and called the 4 people who came there 125 days ago. The agent told those people have flight for PPI Company, Iraq. We were also happy for our turn. But that day about 11 am, one of our friend, Yadav called from Dubai Airport to a friend called Basnet and said "Basanta Bhai hamilai ta PPI bhanera Nepal Pathaidiyo". Then we had a meeting and we called our agent to come our camp.
After 2 days our agents came to our camp and we told to them that we needed to clear information about our Flight. We asked "When were we flying to Iraq? If you can't send us to Iraq we want to return Nepal." Then our agent told us they returned back those people whose agent did not gave commission to them to fly to Iraq so they sent back to Nepal. But asked us not to worry and told our flight should be after 1 week, we told them if you can't send us this week this is not good. We also didn't have other option but to wait for our flight in Dubai, so we waited for our flight to Iraq. On January we had our flight schedule. The company chartered a plane. We left Dubai. After 3 hours we arrived at Erbil International Airport. Then we were given an emergency visa. Then we left Erbil after half an hour, we arrived Joint Base Balad. We were little bit afraid when we saw open area from plane and there were lot of helicopters and some fighter plan. This is the story how I came to joint Base Balad in Iraq.
The author has his personal blog: http://www.lovlyanup.blogspot.com/
साच्चिकै समयका क्रुर चक्रहरु घुमि नै रहे
भावना भरि भरि स्मृतिका सुमनहरु सँगालेर,
मन भरि भरि सितलताक उद्वेगहरु भरेर,
मुटु भरि भरि संब्रिद्धिका सगुनहरु लुकाएर,
आँखा भरि भरि प्रफुल्लताका अनुबन्धित गरेर
अन्जुलि भरि भरि शुभकामनाका कोसेलीहरु बोकेर,
दिल भरि भरि टलपल् टलपल् बिक्षिप्तताहरु कुम्लो कसरे,
म विवस छु - मेरो मुटुको आधा टुक्रा कतै वाटोमै छाडेर
आफुलाई असह्य चोट र व्याथाको परिधि हुँदै
एकान्त तर्फ, अनकन्टार् तर्फ, आँधिवेहेरी तर्फ
छालहरु तर्फ धकेल्न। म बाँधिएको छु,
समयका जन्जिरहरु भित्र